HOW COULD YOU?
Please pass this on!
A man in Grand Rapids, Michigan
took out a $7000 full page ad in the paper to
present the following essay to the people of our
community. It really touched my heart and I hope it
will yours too. HOW COULD YOU? By Jim Willis 2001
When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my
antics and made you laugh. You called me your
child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a
couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your
best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your
finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then
you'd relent, and roll me over for a bellyrub. My
housebreaking took a little longer than expected,
because you were terribly busy, but we worked on
that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling
you in bed and listening to your confidences and
secret dreams, and I believed that life could not
be any more perfect. We went for long walks and
runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I
only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for
dogs," you said), and I took long naps in the sun
waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.
Gradually, you began spending more time at work and
on your career, and more time searching for a human
mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you
through heartbreaks and disappointments, never
chided you about bad decisions, and romped with
glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in
love. She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" --
still welcomed her into our home, tried to show her
affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you
were happy. Then the human babies came along and I
shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their
pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother
them, too. Only she and you worried that I might
hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to
another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted
to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As
they began to grow, I became their friend. They
clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly
legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my
ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved
everything about them and their touch because your
touch was now so infrequent -- and I would have
defended them with my life if need be. I would
sneak into their beds and listen to their worries
and secret dreams, and together we waited for the
sound of your car in the driveway. There had been a
time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that
you produced a photo of me from your wallet and
told them stories about me. These past few years,
you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I
had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and
you resented every expenditure on my behalf. Now,
you have a new career opportunity in another city,
and you and they will be moving to an apartment
that does not allow pets. You've made the right
decision for your "family," but there was a time
when I was your only family. I was excited about
the car ride until we arrived at the animal
shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of
hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said
"I know you will find a good home for her." They
shrugged and gave you a pained look. They
understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog,
even one with "papers." You had to pry your son's
fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No,
Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I
worried for him, and what lessons you had just
taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love
and responsibility, and about respect for all life.
You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my
eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and
leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now
I have one, too. After you left, the two nice
ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming
move months ago and made no attempt to find me
another good home. They shook their heads and
asked, "How could you?" They are as attentive to us
here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow.
They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite
days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen,
I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you
had changed your mind --that this was all a bad
dream ... or I hoped it would at least be someone
who cared, anyone who might save me. When I
realized I could not compete with the frolicking
for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their
own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I
heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end
of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her
to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She
placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told
me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation
of what was to come, but there was also a sense of
relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days.
As is my nature, I was more concerned about her.
The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her,
and I know that, the same way I knew your every
mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my
foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her
hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many
years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle
into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool
liquid coursing through my body, I lay down
sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured
"How could you?" Perhaps because she understood my
dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me,
and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure
I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be
ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for
myself -- a place of love and light so very
different from this earthly place. And with my last
bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a
thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not
directed at her. It was you, My Beloved Master, I
was thinking of. I will think of you and wait for
you forever. May everyone in your life continue to
show you so much loyalty.
The End
A note from the author:
If "How Could You?" brought tears
to your eyes as you read it, as it did to mine as I
wrote it, it is because it is the composite story
of the millions of formerly owned pets who die each
year in American and Canadian animal shelters.
Anyone is welcome to distribute the essay for a
noncommercial purpose, as long as it is properly
attributed with the copyright notice. Please use it
to help educate, on your websites, in newsletters,
on animal shelter and vet office bulletin boards.
Tell the public that the decision to add a pet to
the family is an important one for life, that
animals deserve our love and sensible care, that
finding another appropriate home for your animal is
your responsibility and any local humane society or
animal welfare league can offer you good advice,
and that all life is precious.
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